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hey guys sorry for calling you losers (i'm not) (jk i am)the music player? works? maybe?
Hello to like the 3 people wholl probably see this site ever lmao. Uhhh I dont know a lot about websites but here's prolly where I should make my intro right.
Hey everyone! My name is Kaoru Hakaze. I was born November 3rd! And I’m a student of Yumenosaki gakuen high school. I’m a senior student right there! And my blood type is B. And my class is 3-A That’s pretty much it. Thank you.
Hue hue hue just kidding that's not it im just being a '''jokester,''' if you will...
Anyways My name is Aegis (after months and months of deliberation--I'm sure you can understand), because this is a dumb little personal thing and no one's gonna see it and also it doesn't matter.
anyways hey guys I don't really know what to put here for this text block but i'm sure ill find something later. until then i got nothing for ya. uhh i really like things like orv and link click and also only got into enstars because of that link click collab but ive fallen in love with valkyrie (and undead and akatsuki but those are like 2nd in my heart kinda). I also love the eccentrics and pretty 5 and also the pretty 5 song is honestly my favorite (shuffle unit?) song in enstars. the mana shuffle unit was cool too tho the name reminds me of mana-sama. I wish enstars had a gothic/creepy type vkei unit with mika, mayoi, rei, and yuzuru that would break the internet methinks. I like vkei but i only got into it recently yipee
Heh,........ excepts......... alink to shumika ""analysis"" (in quotes because it less analysis and more me yapping about something that doesn't really make sense because im Dumb as a heccing pupper :3 hahihuheho~
oo I also have a different page to practice french that I'm trying to get into the habit of using since french 4 AP is next year and its gonna suck because I suck at french but anyways il link it once im more confidents
would the people also like a page for my art
its here btw fufu~
writing page i've started (( page in progress, just like most of the site lol))
I hate you voltron legendary defender.
I have a physics test tomorrow chat should I study or read another fanfic
I HATE YPOU I HATE YOU SO MUCH I DOn'T HAVE ENOUGH DIAS TO GET YOU
I genuinely think I forget about this whenever I don't have school (how do i even procrastinate if there's nothing to procrastinate on?) Anyways PSAT in 2 days hope i get good scores and get into the national score thingie (i have not studied for a single day). The sat/psat prepbooks sit on my desk, unopened. I have not written a single thing in it. Jesus Christ (I'm not religious) what have I been doing this entire time.
It feels like my brain isn't okay a lot of the times. There's not a small amount of times that I try to think, and thoughts slip off of my brain like there's nothing to ground them; nothing for my thoughts to catch on to long enough for me to decipher them. It's not like the fog kind of thing that I had in middle school--which I guess was sort of like this weird thing caused by the pandemic where I wasn't entirely grounded in reality--but it's honestly pretty damn similar. At least I'm doing stuff now? Making art? And not just reading fantasy stuff to stop thinking about real things (guy who is still guilty about doing that part, but not as much anymore).
I keep saying "I need to just lock in" but it doesn't work as well. I think I'm good at math. I'm better at math than reading, at least (even though I do enjoy the latter of the two more than the former...) but even with math and physics it's hard to understand these days. Ahhhh at least I have my shitty art...
Good night my good peoples (or evening or morning depending on which part of the world you're on). Got an 80 on the physics progress check. Im sooooo distressed I can't even finish my calc homework (for people who don't know, "calc" is slang for calculus. You see, I'm just the average hip sixteen year old, nothing to see here-). Oh, boy I sure wish the stress of getting an 80 wasn't so bad that I just am not able to do my homework anymore! Ah, well, I guess I'll just have to paint again... aw, man, I wish I could do my homework! But I guess I just have to take a break! oh boy!
More importantly, it kinda feels like I'm making paintings just to make them; like making them just so that it's over and not because I really enjoy painting. I guess it's just because it feels like I have too many canvases (mom got me 9!! of those flat ones) and I'm trying to fill them? I also have 2 sketchbooks I feel guilty over not using so I fill the paper with meaningless stuff just to cover the pages. Trying to get rid of the habit and actually enjoy making art.
More more importantly, I just got too much homework wish someone could axe my head off like they did to the french. Just kidding. I'm gonna lock in tomorrow (trust).
It's almost tomorrow technically but whatever. I'm so cooked. What the hell is going on in physics. Maybe I should be the one teaching myself; my teacher never manages to explain?? anything?? AHh it's my own fault for forgetting AP1 last year...
It's still in the midday essentially and I might just be cursing myself later for saying this but today was alright!! It was a bit sad though when I thought about my friends possibly drifting away from me--I'm not an interesting person, after all--but I suppose that's just something I'll have to deal with. I have lost as many friends as I have loved and I'm probably an idiot to think I'll get to keep these two forever. At least my art will remain with me for as long as I love it.
Speaking of art!! That was what I really wanted to talk about herebut I think it's!! Going well!! It's still not at the level I want it to be, and I'm still depressed because it sucks!!!! So you might be wondering: So (unnamed), why in the world are you so happy? Why so many exclaimations??!! It's because!! Even though I'm not satisfied with what my art is right now!!! And I still think it's horrible!!! I'm satisfied with it!!!! At the moment!!!!!!! Because!!!! I know that I'll get better!!!!!!! And that I have time for me to practice!!!!!!!! My whole life!!!!!!!!!!!! Even if I think there's a time limit until I become an adult!!!!!!!!!! There's still a chance that I might!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I'll keep practicing!!!!!!!!! Until my art is whatever I want it to be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry this was probably not as great of a revelation as you might have thought but I feel really happy right now like I haven't in a while. If anyone reading this feels down I highly recommend making art. Any kind of art--drawing, painting, sculpture, music, cooking, whatever!! But it will make you feel better!! Especially if you're feeling stressed!! Or it may be that it's just some weird experience specific to people like me. But it's still something to try.
Yippee!!! I love today so far!!!!!
addition from 3 hours later: I'm listening to klance comic dubs in the year of our lord 2024 im at the lowest point of my life
Just found out that people taller than me exist i hope they all burn in hell (i hate you childe genshin impact)
who up amor vinciting they omnia. the trip albums became global like a week ago but i dont wanna listen to the valk album in case i might like?? idk form bad memories with it maybe?? I don't know if its the right words but I don't want to connect the thought of the trip album with bad experiences, so i try to only listen to it when im making art at like 2 am lol. ((dont get that time anymore... damn you calculus BC))
anyways. my parents were arguing because I woke up late to get to the bus so I just stayed home (bad idea) (i didnt get any work done) AAAAAAAAAAH i gotta lock in
but that is all that I would like to share ♡ yippee♡♡
Every image is mostly from the enstars wiki
I got the frames for the 2 logn gifs from twitter and forgot the acc name bUT i will attempt to find it if i can. stil dont have an account either but working onit
the stamp I made from tica 4 (2nd stamp in the column thing) is also from the trailer so I assume? im not like using it illegally or something